Mother’s Day

Mother's Day! A simple and lovely day and yet such a complicated one for so many, myself included.

While my own mom was still alive, I spent the afternoon going out to visit her and dad. Gifts were never necessary as she really didn't need anything; so a card and a nice plant or flowers. What really mattered to her was the time we spent visiting together. I had a great mom and I miss her still!

When my boys were little, Davis would always got me a card and a plant from the local greenhouse. Mikael, on the other hand, was often scrambling around that Sunday morning making a last minute homemade card! It still makes me laugh when I look back on those days. Once the boys were grown, mother's day was simply spent visiting together at some point during the day. And now that Mikael is gone, this is what we still do, it's just that there is a great big missing piece. A piece that I will never be able to replace. Not a piece actually, a presence. It leaves a gaping hole and so I try to fill it with all the love I have for my family. I let memories of Mikael float around in my head. I make room within myself to enjoy the time spent with my loved ones and allow the memories to soothe my heart.

So, you see, Mother's Day is lovely but complicated day for many. A day where celebration and sorrow can walk hand in hand together.