What I’ve Learned

First and foremost, I have learned to put myself completely in the hands of Jesus to carry me every single day.

I have learned to forgive myself and others. I cannot continue carrying the load of this loss without ridding myself of resentments and guilt. I have learned to hand these matters over to the Lord. Even when it is hard to do. I have had to ask myself if I want to live with anger inside me or if I want to live in freedom. I am choosing freedom.

I am learning to live one day at a time.

It has become so clear to me that there are amazing, brave, warrior parents out there who are walking this walk with me. Total respect!

I have learned to allow myself grace. Grace to feel every part of the agony of my loss and allow myself to sit with those feelings when I need to. Grace to accept days when I can’t function.