A Tough Week

This past week has been such a difficult one and I'm not even sure I understand all the reasons why. I felt so down on myself and spiritually bereft. Last Monday it felt like a dark cloud was attaching itself to me. I had to work that day and went through it on auto pilot. It's hard to explain why sometimes I magnify my mistakes in my head and end up feeling completely useless and undeserving; the feeling that I will never measure up. There was a slow lifting of the clouds through the week, but I struggled to climb out of the funk. I began to realize that I was under spiritual attack, with the purpose of dragging me down and making me give up.

On Friday morning I went for a walk with my spiritual music playing. Two songs in particular really spoke to me. One of them was "Come as You Are" by Crowder, https://youtu.be/r2zhf2mqEMI?si=WImysP1qLI1Vc6SP and the other was "Lord I Need You" by Matt Maher, https://youtu.be/LuvfMDhTyMA?si=sXL-JnStZZfh-VlP. As I listened to the lyrics, I opened my heart up to the Lord and poured myself out. I asked for help. I accepted grace. And as I kept walking, each song on the playlist was exactly what I needed to hear. God is so good. The truth is that there are times when I simply flounder. When I feel less than, no good, worthless. And that is when God's Word is my armour, my rescue and deliverance. In this case, his Word came through music. Scripture reminds us of who we really are, how loved we are, that we are forgiven, what our purpose is, who has the victory in Christ. If you have ever felt under spiritual attack, I hope you are able to turn to the Lord and let him fight the battle for you. I know I can't fight these battles on my own - I need my Saviour, all the time.